Single. Holy guacamole, I am single.
Just the simple thought of being single use to scare the
living mess out of me. “I’M SINGLE!! I AM GOING TO DIE ALONE!! OH MY GOODNESS!”
Pitiful, right? Well, I have realized that a lot of girls think this way
whether they want to admit it or not. I have recently been single for the
longest time in my life, 3 whole months. I use to jump in and out of
relationships so quickly; it is not even funny, but kind of embarrassing. I
have been so dependent on finding someone to entertain me and to make me happy,
when in reality; I am the one who needed
to make myself happy. The reason why I have never truly fallen in love is because
I wasn't even in love with myself. I fully believe that in order to fall in
love, you have to fall in love with yourself
first. “Love myself? I already do.” See, that is what I also thought until
my friend pointed it out to me. I hated the way I looked. I hated the way that
God made me. Why do I have such wide hips, why do I have such wide shoulders,
why can’t I be skinny all over, why can’t I look exactly like her? We want to
look like these girls in magazines, when we all don’t have that body type and
if a guy expects you to look like that, then girl you need to kick his sorry
tail to the curb. You are too beautiful for his nonsense. Looks like I got off
on a tangent a little bit there, sorry for that. My point is, I had to learn
how to love myself and I started by learning how to love my body. I want to love every curve God gave me,
every jiggle that fatty foods gave me, and every scar that life and sports gave
me. I want to love myself. I want to
be my own kind of Beautiful. Being single no longer scares me, it is
liberating. It was scary at first because I had no clue what to do without
someone by my side. I truly felt so lonely, but then I realized that I am not
ever alone, God is by my side. I don’t need a man to make me happy, I can make
myself happy. Being single has allowed me to find out who I really am and I
have to say, I am truly amazing. Just saying.
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